How long does it take a heart to heal?
When I was young and "in love" with someone new every other week my heart was pretty resilient. When parents lose children it takes no less than two years to feel like they can even begin functioning fully again. When my Grandmother Mary passed away I grieved for my regrets. When my Grandmother Joy died I grieved for my loss. I don't know which was worse.
This wound in my heart, the one I try to ignore and hide, the one that catapulted my family from our complacency, is still open and raw. It's healing around the edges, but it still makes it difficult to be with certain people I love, the ones who aren't at fault for the wound, but were present when it occurred. They reside in little, tertiary tears surrounding the larger hole.
I try to reason myself healed. I would never have moved if I hadn't been forced to, and even though it is difficult at times, it is the right thing for my family. My sons are in such better situations, even though they don't recognize it. I think of these things, and I'm grateful. Still...at times the pain punches me in the stomach and doubles me over.
How long does it take a heart to heal?
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