Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Mom 2.0

The other day my mother chatted on and on about both of my brothers and what great guys they are and how much they've done for her. She gives different versions of this litany often, and it's fine with me, I agree with her. They are good men, and I love and admire them both.

On this particular day, Mom mused, "You know, you might actually be related to them."
I said, "Yep, I bet I am."
Mom kept thinking, and got all excited and giddy, "I've never thought about it before, but I bet if I did some research, I would find out that you're related some how!"
Happily, I said, "That would be nice, they would be good guys to be related to!"

I am sad and frustrated at this disease that is taking my mother away, but I try to find blessings in even hard things. I am so grateful for her kindness and loving spirit. It's a blessing to have her here with my family. Please understand that when I find humor in our dialogue, I'm not laughing at her. I'm simply trying to find joy within the sorrow. At this point, if my mother is happy, it doesn't matter if it's based in reality.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Huh?

Mom: Where does that tall skinny boy live?

Me: He lives here with us. He's my son, Clark.

Mom: Oh, he is? I didn't know that.

Me: Yep, he is. He's also your grandson.

Mom (with a tone of voice indicating that she thinks I'm ridiculous): Well of course he is, if he's your son. (pause) So then...is he related to you?

It's conversations like these that make me wish I understood her brain better.

Friday, November 11, 2011

What feeds your soul?

A couple days ago Isaac came home from school, bringing with him a small whiteboard/bulletin board that he had won playing bingo in his math class. He generously let me play around on it, drawing, writing, and erasing things, then I wrote, "What feeds your soul?" He took it away from me and wrote, "Micky D's" (meaning McDonalds), so I grabbed my purse and said, "Let's go." After he consumed his two $1.00 cheeseburgers and large order of fries (pretty inexpensive soul food in my opinion), I helped him hang his whiteboard in the family room. As the finishing touch, I erased everything off the board and wrote, once again, "What feeds your soul?" I then went on to my next task. Awhile later I glanced at the board and saw that Isaac had written:

Isaac
My dogs (later adding, My family on both sides and Mac and cheese)

Delighted that he understood my question, I added mine, below his:

Denise
My family and good music

As Clark and Davis came home and saw the board, they added their responses:

Clark
Words

Davis
Stories of the impossible

Man, I love those boys!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Happy List.3

1. Fresh, soft Tootsie Rolls.

That's it. That's all I've got today.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Happy List.2

1. Purple flowers
2. Forgiving friends
3. Rocky beaches
4. Brown rice
5. White rice
6. Lazy Sunday mornings
7. New textbooks
8. The promise of a new semester

Saturday, August 6, 2011

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.”
~ Melody Beattie~

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Happy List

My wonderful niece, Christina, has a "happy list" on her Facebook wall. I like it so much, I'm stealing it from her. So every once in a while when I'm feeling grateful and happy, I'm going to list things that make me feel that way. Here is my first installment:

1. Hair long enough to pull up into a ponytail.
2. The smell of a freshly watered baseball field.
3. A husband who doesn't get upset with me when I volunteer him to do crazy things.
4. A son who is willing to watch "chick flicks" with me and who shares my sense of humor.
5. A second son who I can have deep, meaningful conversations with.
6. A third son who I can be crazy and silly with without embarrassing him....too much.
7. Flowering plants that live in the desert.
8. Pedicures

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Perspective

This past week I've had a cold. Normally colds are more of a nuisance than anything, but this one has kicked my butt. Yesterday was the worst, with head and chest congestion, body aches, and fever. At one point I remember thinking I was going to die, or wishing I would. Okay, so sometimes I get a little melodramatic when I don't feel well. At least it makes me appreciative when I do feel healthy. Today I'm feeling much better, and some of that is because my tiny little cold has been put in perspective.

This morning, at about 5:30 A.M., we had a drunken young stranger wander into our house, crouch in the corner of our living room, and puke. Normally I lock all the doors before I go to bed, but because I was sick, the doors didn't get locked. I don't know why she chose our house, it's not like the door is even a straight shot from the curb, but for whatever reason, she tried our door and felt free to come in and use the corner of the room as, well...you know.

Let me back up and describe what happened. I woke up coughing, so I got up, used the restroom, refilled my water glass, took some more cold medicine, then climbed back into bed. I had barely closed my eyes when I heard Brian and someone talking. Brian had moved to the sofa in the family room earlier in the night because my coughing was keeping him awake. I couldn't make out what they were saying, but the other voice definitely wasn't one of our sons', it was too high. I thought maybe it was one of my youngest son's friends, but still...at 5:30 A.M.? That was just too weird. Then Brian yelled to me, "Denise, I need you to put on some clothes and come out here. Someone just came into our house and threw up!" It was very surreal. Kneeling in the corner of our living room was a teenage girl in a t-shirt and shorts, no shoes, completely oblivious to the fact that she was in someones home that she didn't know. I bent down and tried to talk to her, ask her name, etc, and it was very obvious that she was drunk. I doubted she was old enough to be drinking at all. I finally got her first name out of her, and she asked for a bed to lay down in. I said, "No, you're not going to sleep in one of our beds." Then told Brian to call the police. What else were we supposed to do with her?

Brian called the police and walked out onto the front step while he was talking with them. While he was out there, another young woman came down the street and Brian figured out that she was looking for the girl in our house. Intending to get the drunk girl into her friend's car, we got her outside, and to the sidewalk, where she threw up one more time, then decided that the cement would make a fine substitute for a bed, and proceeded to lay down on it. Brian stayed outside while I went back in and cleaned up the contents of her stomach out of our carpet. Apparently the girl had just barely turned 19.

I will never understand how getting that drunk is fun.


This past week, Clark and Isaac went on a "Pioneer Trek" with the youth from our church. It was intended to simulate a portion of what the Mormon pioneers, who crossed the plains with handcart companies, went through. We were expecting the boys to be back yesterday at about 4:00 P.M., but early in the afternoon we got a phone call, telling us that the children were delayed by several hours. One of the men, a friend from our ward, had a heart attack as they were hiking back to the busses, and passed away. He was only 55 years old. His wife and two teenage children were all on the trek together. They have four adult children who weren't on the trek. I can't even begin to imagine what his wife, Jenny, is going through, but she is an amazing, strong woman. The couple were both supposed to speak in church today. Astonishingly, she still gave her talk. I wasn't there because I'm still not feeling great, but I wish I had been. She is an incredible example. As I said, it puts my pitiful problems into perspective.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Poem by Davis

The following is a poem my 17 year old son, Davis, wrote. I'm posting it here with his permission.

Alone I walk

Alone I walk
Through the streets of the deceased
Searching the rubble of the fallen
For the one to bring peace to my soul
The wind howls taking signs of life to distant lands
The scrub and weeds grow in cracks along the floor
Dust it settles where none but air flows
The sky it cries for a forgotten soul
White light plays tricks springing up life where none exists
Hidden under broken towers life flashes away as soon as it comes
Death is inevitable to the soul as solitude weaves its grasp
The strongest will survives little longer then the weak
As the sun pierces the heavens casting back the shadows
Life seeps back into the world
Havoc rushes forth sweeping the streets
Alone I walk in the city’s masses

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Profound

I just heard a profound comment while Isaac was watching the cartoon, "Fairly Odd Parents."

Timmy: "Two wrongs don't make a right."

Cosmo: "True, but three rights make a left."


Think about it.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

For My Family

This is going to be a "newsie" post for my family. I haven't talked to my sister in over a month, even though she has been on a cruise and hasn't deemed it important enough to call her only sister (That was my exercise in passive aggression for the day. How did I do?). Of course, I haven't called her either, so we're even.

Davis has gone to Disneyland today with his friend, Miles. Supposedly it's a four hour drive, so they left at 4:00 AM and will leave after the park closes tonight and drive back home. I was really happy that Davis wanted to go. I know he doesn't like being crammed into a car hours on end, and he's such a "home-body" (not to be mistaken for a "home boy"), which I completely understand because I'm the same way. I remember many family outings that I stayed home from as a teenager. Anyway, Miles is an exchange student from China. Obviously, Miles is not his real name, but he hasn't told me what it is. He probably assumes most Americans can't pronounce it and might not even try. He is staying with a single woman who is a teacher. Last night she told Brian and me that she is only supposed to be an interim host until another family is found for him to stay with. She asked us if we would like to host him. We're thinking about it. He's such a nice boy, but personally, I'm already so overwhelmed with responsibilities. I'm not sure our family would be the best representation of an American family. Lol, last night I said that to Brian and he said, "I'm not sure we're the best representation of A family." He's a funny man. I don't know....we're thinking about it.

This week Clark finished up a life-guarding course and earned his certification to work as a life-guard. He won't be able to work until after he turns 16, in June, but the instructor, who is also a recruiter for the city, indicated that Clark will have a job as soon as he is old enough. I actually think it's a good thing he can't work right now. He is also trying out for the high school swimming team and is planning on joining the drama club so that he can be on the stage crew for productions. I think that's a pretty good plan.

Isaac is still playing the trumpet and trying to get through his first year of junior high school. He went on his first official Boy Scout campout a couple weekends ago. It's the first time he's been camping without his father. He had a great time. He was ordained a deacon about a month ago. As I watched him pass the sacrament for the first time I was so proud of him. I could tell he felt awkward and nervous, but he did a great job. The same week, Davis was at the sacrament table, blessing the sacrament and Clark was an usher. It made me start thinking about all three of my sons and how they've grown and developed. I thought about Davis' first real haircut and how "grown-up" he looked as a little toddler. I remembered Clark's first week at kindergarten, how he got in a fight with another little boy and slugged him. I'm so grateful to be the mother of these three boys. I am such a better person because of them.

Brian and I went to see Bonnie Raitt in concert last night. She and her band were so good! It wasn't a fancy production, like so many are now. It was just the band and their instruments and it was fantastic. We saw her at a casino on the Nevada-California border, so it's about 30 minutes or so away from Las Vegas. Towards the end of the concert I got a text message from a co-worker who just moved here from Utah a coouple weeks ago. He and his wife and 5 year old daughter had broken down in their car in Vegas. Since we were so far away, the wife and daughter called a neighbor and got a ride home, but he didn't want to leave his car stranded (smart move for Vegas), so was waiting for a 24 hour mechanic to call him back. By the time we got out of the concert he still hadn't heard back from the mechanic, so we stopped at a store and bought a tow rope and towed him back home so that his car wouldn't be vandalized. A few weeks ago Brian and the boys helped this same coworker move into their new home while I took care of the daughter. I'm so thankful for Brian and what a good man he is. I love knowing that even though sometimes he doesn't want to, he is always willing to help people out when they need him.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Things My Sons Say that Tickle Me

Clark (After I gave him a piece of gum): I thank you for contributing to the well-being of my mouth.

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Me (Singing at the top of my lungs and off key): “I’m so excited and I just can’t hide it. I’m about to lose control and I think I like it!”
Isaac (in a deadpan voice): Do you think you could at least TRY to hide it?

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Clark (Looking in a mirror): I have sexy eyes.
Me: Yes you do.
Clark: I think I must have your eyes because everyone says I do.
Me: Yep, you do.
Clark: That means that your eyes are sexy. (Looks at me) Only yours are all wrinkly.

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For Christmas, my husband gave me some vinyl record albums to play on the cool turntable he got me for Christmas last year. One of them is James Taylor's album that was produced in 1976. There's a picture of him on the inside sleeve. When Clark saw it he said, "Who's that? He looks like a scoundrel."
I told him, "James Taylor, and he was a little bit of a scoundrel back then."
After listening to Taylor sing for a couple minutes Clark said, "He sure doesn't sound like a scoundrel."

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I'm not real good at remembering the things the kids say that make me laugh, but I've been trying to write them down. I'll add more as I remember.

Davis is the only one of the three that has a cell phone. He got one in November for his 17th birthday. I have a confession....I love him having a cell phone! Sometimes he will send me silly little text messages during the day when he shouldn't be, like when he's in class, but I don't care! I love that he is communicating with me! He writes things that make me laugh, but I don't know that they would come across as very funny if I wrote them in here, but they just delight me.